Saturday, July 26, 2014

Krodhakara Angushojwala

Lalitha Sahasranamam is one of the blessings that has been bestowed upon humans.

Bhagawat Geetha is said to be the 'Upanishad Sara' - The essence of all Upanishads. However, Lalitha Sahasranamam goes many steps beyond - But, the meanings it exposes are not for all.

The meanings are deeply personal, and also very deeply profound. LSN also bestows immense boons to people who read / chant / listen to it.

There are some truly aweful translations of LSN around, and I definitely don't want to add to that.

However, I am truly compelled to write this quick entry

According to Vedanta, bonds are pain - Bonds could be positive (a sense of attraction) or negative (repulsion, hate) - Irrespective of their adjectives, bonds are what they are - bonds. They tie the human to the cycle of samsara - Repeated births and deaths. (Remember Punarapi Jananam, Punarapi Maranam in Bhaja Govindam?)

It is funny that bonds are actually created by the Great Goddess Herself. (What else is there apart from Her?) - So, to be relieved of the bonds, we need to pray to Her - Name #8 in LSN says 'Raga Swaroopa Pashadya' - i.e., Ambal is in the form of bonds (Pasha), esp in the Raga form (positive attraction)

Positive bonds are toughest to break - Take any positive bond that you might have with any person (living or dead) - Are you ready to let go of the bond? I can already hear the answer - NO.

So, what happens after repeated births and deaths, the poor devotee is unable to let go of the bonds? Mother, because of Her infinite Grace cuts them! How does she cut the bond which is in form of a rope? She has a sharp and shiny (ujwala)  weapon (angusha). But, when She cuts, She cuts that with Anger (Krodhakara) [Name #9 - Krodhakara Angushojwala]

So, it takes a lot of effort to let go of the bonds (to things, people, concepts) - Pray to Mother Lalitha Maha Tripura Sundari to assist you in cutting the bonds. The truth is there is no feeling of real love (not the cinema types) unless the sense of ownership or attachment goes away. So, to express genuine love, again, ask Mother to cut your bonds with a great sense of urgency and anger!

This is an intro to my next entry which talks in detail about anger and being angry (a great deal of difference)

Friday, January 31, 2014

Kandhar Anubhuti

"ஆடும் பரி, வேல், அணிசேவல் எனப்
பாடும் பணியே பணியா அருள்வாய்"

This should be prayer for devout Hindus who pray Sri Subrahmanya! Kandhar Anubhuti is truly one of the BEST works in Tamil Literature. I was blessed enough to learn this when I was in US in early 2000s from Meena gave me a cassette with recording of Sri TKS (who was no more then) and I used to listen this continuously till I memorized it.

I have been fascinated by how it is even possible for humans to bring out something as beautiful as this. It is only the direct Grace of Lord Subrahmanya which enabled Sri Arunagirinathar  to create Kandhar Anubhuti - This is evident verse 17:

யாம் ஓதிய கல்வியும், எம் அறிவும்
தாமே பெற, வேலவர் தந்ததனால்

All the knowledge and intelligence is granted to one by Lord Subrahmanya in His own volition (ZERO credits for any other reason)

If there is ONE work that alone is enough to take a person to liberation, give health, wealth and in the end give final Union (Anubhuti) the Supreme Lord, it is Kandhar Anubhuti.

Lord Subrahmanya is always with Meena, Sankar and family for they are some of the most beautiful souls who come to share joy and peace in this world. I am so happy Meena is uploading Periappa's (Shri TKS') Thiruppugazh renderings. This page needs to be bookmarked, subscribed to, and regularly consumed by all devotees of the Lord.

And, this is the link for the Kandhar Anubhuti recording: - கந்தர் அநுபூதி

[Edit: 16/02 - Started a blog on Kandhar Anubhuti. Please check it out -]

PS:- (Long Footnote)
Sahana (Sankar / Meena's second daughter) was about year old then, and once was crying when I was in their California residence. Meena carried her and sang something very beautiful. Sahana stopped crying! After Meena put Sahana back in the cradle, we walked away, and I asked Meena what that song was - My knowledge of scriptures was (is) severely lacking. Meena said it was Kandhar Anubhuti. I requested her to teach that to me, and she did. She also gave me the cassette with the recording of this by Sri TKS.

Ironically (for me), I used to stay 200m from where Shri TKS, Shri Lakshmanan (Meena's father) stayed, and TKS used to conduct Thiruppugazh classes when I was a kid. Never did it strike me that I could have learnt from the Genius himself. One should have accrued a lot of Good Karma for such ideas to strike :-)

After Meena gave me the cassette, I listened to the song in a Sony Walkman (ha ha ha - Remember those?) continuously for a couple of weeks till I memorized the 51 stanzas.

From then on, the song is quite famous at least with people with new born kids who cry :-) It has a magical effect of controlling kids who tend to turn quiet and sleep esp if they are cranky.

That's my story of learning Kandhar Anubhuti, and is one of the best things to happen to me.

Saturday, January 11, 2014


Contradictory to popular opinion, my Sanskrit knowledge is abysmal. I somehow manage to figure out the meanings of verses / songs with great difficulty after consulting many sources. Sometimes, I feel I shouldn't write much because, I have no intent of misleading anyone. 

Secondly, the scripture Lalitha Sahasranamam (1000 Names of the Lalitha, the Goddess Supreme) is called the 'Guhya' Sahasranamam - The 'Secret' Sahasranamam. It is secret because, without the initiation of a particular Mantra (called Panchadashi) this scripture will remain closed for exploration. (For some pure souls, who know this mantra in previous births, the effect may continue in this one, but it is the word of the great Rishis that anyone who wants to read this scripture must be initiated into this Mantra from a Guru)

The Names in this Saharanamam cannot be discussed in public or used for vanity purposes. However, this name - Aprameya brings a very very beautiful aspect of the Goddess that I am unable to resist sharing with rest of the world :-) (Thankfully, my readership is typically in single digits, and that limits the damage done :-) )

The word Aprameya is also a name  of Vishnu in mentioned in Vishnu Sahasranamam. Needless to say, at the Highest Level, there is no differentiation. 

Thanks to my non-existent Sanskrit knowledge, coupled with seeing some Hollywood flicks like 'Ajab Prem Ki Gazhab Kahani...', the word 'aprameya' used to remind of the word love. But, that's no where related to what the word means

The question comes, how is anything revealed? One can say by 'senses' - For e.g., you can see something, hear something, touch something etc. For eg., in TN you can still hear people say 'Pratyakshama paathen!' - Which is 'I witnessed it with my own eyes' - Prati in Sanskrit meaning 'Via' or 'Using' and Aksham meaning 'Eye' - So together it become Pratyaksham. 

(There are funny uses in Tamil where people say 'pratyakshama ketten' which translates to I listened with my eyes, but the intent is 'I heard with my own ears')

So, the first way of how things can be revealed is 'Pratyaksha Pramanam' - Revealing through Eyes (in general, senses)

The second way is by 'Logic' or 'Extrapolation' - You see a ball being hit, and after sometime you hear a crashing sound of a window. Just because you did not see the ball breaking the window, you can still guess that the ball travelled towards the window, and then it broke the window. This is by Logic or Extrapolation - Called 'Anumana Pramana' - Revealing through Logic

The mighty truths beyond the realms of mind and senses cannot be revealed, except by the Vedas - Called 'Shruti Pramana' - Revealing through ('Holy') Words (of Vedas) - These truths cannot be known any other way. There is no questioning of Shruti Pramanam. It is perfect. (There was one useless lady anchor in NDTV who wanted the Acharyas of modern days to re-write Purusha Sukta - The great Acharyas won't change even the intonation of a single syllable revealed by Shruti)

Now we can see that there are three types of Pramanams - Pratyaksha, Anumana and Shruti Pramanam - Three ways of 'Revealing'. The funny thing is that I know this for a very long time. Now came the twist - If pramanam is the word for the 'way of the revealing', what is the meaning for the one that is revealed? It is 'prameya'! 

I then realized that why is Ambal, the Greatest One, The Supreme Goddess called 'Aprameya'? Because, EVEN Vedas, cannot reveal Her! There is nothing known by humans, Rishis, Gods that can reveal Her. She is the PERFECT HIDDEN ONE. 

Words, Metaphors, Logic, Vedas expose their weakness and shy in front of the Glory of the Goddess, Sri Lalitha Maha Tripura Sundari! 

So, now you know why Ambal is called Aprameya. If you have anyways of knowing Her, you can drop all attempts. She cannot be Revealed, by ANYTHING known or Unknown, since She is defined as One who cannot be Revealed. (It is like trying to measure something less than Planck's constant - It is not possible!)

Did I lead you to despair? Just read the next Name in the Sahasranama. (This will show why this is Boss of all Sahasranamas!)

The next name is 'Sva Prakasha' - One Who Reveals / Shines Herself (of Her own volition) - So, when Ambal is pleased, She will reveal Herself. This name is even more dear to me, and I'll save you from my ramblings on this name. (It can be reflected upon in many many ways). 

So, next time you listen / chant Sahasranama, and you get to this Name, bow to Her in all Humility that She is the One beyond all realms and let the ego get squashed. Pray to Her fervently when you get to the next Name for Her to Reveal Herself. 

Bye for now!